I’m not a doctor or physician, but I am in the medical field. I’m a transporter at Kennedy Hospital in Washington Township. I push people back and forth all day from room to test and back again. I like my job and my area of study: Nursing. So I guess you can call me a science guy…and a Christian.
Even with my limited knowledge and understanding of the scientific world, sometimes these two “worldviews” collide. Of course Christ is the Author and Perfecter; He is ruler of my life, not science. But still, these two areas of my life can come into conflict with each other in some areas. Are ‘vegetables’ worthy to spend medical funding on? Do they have souls still? Why should we purposefully prolong their lives? Why try?
Granted, I don't know why I ask these questions, but sometimes I still find myself asking them. As I pull a braindead patient into their bed, sometimes I wonder. I feel terrible, but I wonder. Sometimes I ask God “Why? Why prolong this life? What good can this person do? How are You loving them through this?” Then I stop and pause. I realize that…I just don’t understand God. I don’t always understand why He does what He does. At first this scares me, but then it comforts me. If I always understood Him, then I would be God. Anyone who knows me knows that that isn’t a good scenario!
All throughout the Gospels, I can see that God keeps things hidden only to be shown if He wants it to be known. That is true power. That same power is given to me with salvation; the same Spirit that filled Jesus, fills me. This is Truth. This is what I have to live by in order to remain sane. This is the peace that Christ has given me.
While I don’t have the answers to my own questions earlier, I must ask myself another series of questions: Who am I to judge between life and death? Who am I to judge the degree of God’s love poured out on any given individual? Who am I to judge who has a soul and who doesn’t?
Answer: I am nothing. BUT Christ is everything, including both omniscient and loving. I trust that.
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